Just have the urge to type out those feelings I had these days... It have been years and everything is different now... Some of which changes so fast that I didn't manage to catch a breath... Guess no one is gona read this blog now but it's better in this way...

Hmm... A lot of complications in me and I don't understand why am I still feeling confused despite me knowing wad will be the ans... Maybe because I am unwilling to admit that it's impossible... But even just by thinking of the options, all come to the same conclusion, so why am I still struggling?

Actually I shld have just close one eye and continue, but I knw I fall too deep inside that I am afraid that one day, it may be too hard for me to withdraw... I'm abit tired and trying to live my life normal again... However, there is still chaos inside me... I know wad I want and I know that the deep down feeling is still there that I couldn't just neglect the fact...

Every moment seems so precious to me... Every event seems so important to me, but only to me... I know that u will never cross over the line, so do I, having no idea on how to cross it... Maybe this is really all fated? Even readings says it wouldn't last... But why am I still hoping for a future? Am I just so stubborn? Maybe it's just not meant to be...

~ I'm keep waiting, that you didn't know ~

Sign off,

Kelly

Just have the urge to type out those feelings I had these days... It have been years and everything is different now... Some of which changes so fast that I didn't manage to catch a breath... Guess no one is gona read this blog now but it's better in this way...

Hmm... A lot of complications in me and I don't understand why am I still feeling confused despite me knowing wad will be the ans... Maybe because I am unwilling to admit that it's impossible... But even just by thinking of the options, all come to the same conclusion, so why am I still struggling?

Actually I shld have just close one eye and continue, but I knw I fall too deep inside that I am afraid that one day, it may be too hard for me to withdraw... I'm abit tired and trying to live my life normal again... However, there is still chaos inside me... I know wad I want and I know that the deep down feeling is still there that I couldn't just neglect the fact...

Every moment seems so precious to me... Every event seems so important to me, but only to me... I know that u will never cross over the line, so do I, having no idea on how to cross it... Maybe this is really all fated? Even readings says it wouldn't last... But why am I still hoping for a future? Am I just so stubborn? Maybe it's just not meant to be...

~ I'm keep waiting, that you didn't know ~

Sign off,

Kelly